Sorry for my long absence, readers. My life is getting messier all the time.
It is so easy to want to take to simple path in life, especially when your life is full of painful experiences. Believe me, I know. There are so many days where I don’t even want to get out of bed. I will admit that God has blessed me with a life where I do not need to work and can, therefore, take care of my personal health.
Now, when I say “Simple”, no one should think that people with chronic pain have it easy. The reality is quite the opposite. For example, in my case, I am in some form of pain 24/7. The kinds of pain can range from a simple neckache to the entire left side of my body feeling like it’s on fire. Learning to cope with it has been a skill built throughout by lifetime, and with the Lord’s help. He is still showing me that it is okay is simply relax when I need to.
That is a hard lesson for me to learn. I grew up believing that I had to prove that I was just was capable as the “big kids”. Therefore, I pushed myself to do as many outdoors activities as possible, looking back, I should have been smarter. This belief carried over into adulthood. The idea of a career, that everyone is taught in school, gave me anxiety, because I felt like I was always falling behind. When I did work, I had to stop for health reasons. That was stressful.
Lord, help me to calm my mind and make my health my #2 priority, second to worshipping you. Bless all my readers.